Friday, February 10
you get me high`
4:17 AM
4:17 AM
Tuesday, February 7
i have the best og in the world.
really.
really.
you get me high`
7:17 AM
7:17 AM
Monday, February 6
[summer samba]
Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me
So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me
Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me
Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me
So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me
Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me
you get me high`
6:01 AM
6:01 AM
Sunday, February 5
[that would be so nice]
my muscles haven't had the mood to do anything. sometimes it's even hard to get up in the morning. i still prefer dreamland a lot more to reality. the fatigue really gets to me.
in a melancholic mood right now, haven't been terribly cheery nor moody. just kinda stoned. sometimes solitude does help, just that there are twenty+ people at my place, i just want some peace.
but then again, i always hate it when it's quiet. lost in my world with just me myself and i- yet again. i'm sick of it.
aren't i such a contradiction?
i love people yet i hate crowds.
i just need to break free from the stress, the chaos. take a break, and bask in the sunset. next to the horizon, listening to the waves sing. run my fingers through fine sand. and just let the wind take refuge. i guess i just wanna get lost in my surroundings... and feel comfortable with it.
won't someone fulfill my dreams? anyone?
i just wanna feel safe in my own skin. i feel so choked up i don't even wanna be with myself anymore.
i'm not in a bad mood, i'm just dreamy.
picturing my oasis, amidst the hostile desert.
you just get so sick of everything, you wanna break free. to be able to think and feel anything you want, to do anything without any restrictions. to love like you've never loved before. to laugh like the whole world is joyous. and to cry like no one's judging.
if only my world were as such.
then maybe i won't be feeling like this right now.
if you could take my hand and samba through life with me
my muscles haven't had the mood to do anything. sometimes it's even hard to get up in the morning. i still prefer dreamland a lot more to reality. the fatigue really gets to me.
in a melancholic mood right now, haven't been terribly cheery nor moody. just kinda stoned. sometimes solitude does help, just that there are twenty+ people at my place, i just want some peace.
but then again, i always hate it when it's quiet. lost in my world with just me myself and i- yet again. i'm sick of it.
aren't i such a contradiction?
i love people yet i hate crowds.
i just need to break free from the stress, the chaos. take a break, and bask in the sunset. next to the horizon, listening to the waves sing. run my fingers through fine sand. and just let the wind take refuge. i guess i just wanna get lost in my surroundings... and feel comfortable with it.
won't someone fulfill my dreams? anyone?
i just wanna feel safe in my own skin. i feel so choked up i don't even wanna be with myself anymore.
i'm not in a bad mood, i'm just dreamy.
picturing my oasis, amidst the hostile desert.
you just get so sick of everything, you wanna break free. to be able to think and feel anything you want, to do anything without any restrictions. to love like you've never loved before. to laugh like the whole world is joyous. and to cry like no one's judging.
if only my world were as such.
then maybe i won't be feeling like this right now.
if you could take my hand and samba through life with me
you get me high`
1:24 AM
1:24 AM
Friday, February 3
[something so divine]
helloo. i'm sleepy and tired so i'll make this short.
well school's been pretty taxing. and rather boring. nothing much to look forward to. the work's getting harder too. i still haven't figured out how i'm gonna do my KI essay.
mm jazz today! pretty fun i guess. first time i getta go for cca doing the thing i love most. people there seem nice too. all nice and friendly, and more important straightforward. meaning i don't see any bad feelings hidden behind those smiles. hope it remains like that!
figured out what to do for my birthday already! i'm happy. i know it's a bit early, but i've got a few groups of people to celebrate with, so i'd better plan earlier if i want any celebration at all.
been feeling rather empty. it's hard to find the purpose in life. nor the motivation to carry on. don't really know what's wrong with me. i hope it's just the fatigue from yesterday and today. just starts to feel like the world is crumbling over you, but now, i don't even care about it. whether it crushes me or not, i just feel indifferent. it's very unlike me. perhaps when too many things weigh you down, you try to detach yourself too much. so much so that you start to being cold and almost unfeeling. and everything just feels the same- good or bad. who cares, anyway.
sigh. i wanna get outta this mood, can you help me?
helloo. i'm sleepy and tired so i'll make this short.
well school's been pretty taxing. and rather boring. nothing much to look forward to. the work's getting harder too. i still haven't figured out how i'm gonna do my KI essay.
mm jazz today! pretty fun i guess. first time i getta go for cca doing the thing i love most. people there seem nice too. all nice and friendly, and more important straightforward. meaning i don't see any bad feelings hidden behind those smiles. hope it remains like that!
figured out what to do for my birthday already! i'm happy. i know it's a bit early, but i've got a few groups of people to celebrate with, so i'd better plan earlier if i want any celebration at all.
been feeling rather empty. it's hard to find the purpose in life. nor the motivation to carry on. don't really know what's wrong with me. i hope it's just the fatigue from yesterday and today. just starts to feel like the world is crumbling over you, but now, i don't even care about it. whether it crushes me or not, i just feel indifferent. it's very unlike me. perhaps when too many things weigh you down, you try to detach yourself too much. so much so that you start to being cold and almost unfeeling. and everything just feels the same- good or bad. who cares, anyway.
sigh. i wanna get outta this mood, can you help me?
you get me high`
6:12 AM
6:12 AM
Wednesday, February 1
remembering the days
when the love began
thinking of a million ways
to escape and be with you
our reality wasn't just you and i
it was long drawn out days and lonely nights
dreaming about you
i keep dreaming about you
and i'm dreaming about when you would say
let me take you to another place
where nothing ever seems to matter
it's just you and me
we can take flight
like a thief in the night
stolen moments with you
well destiny
didn't have such a simple plan
i was just a girl
and you a young man
how could age define
something so divine
can this even be real
or just exist in my mind
when noone and nothing else takes up our time
finally you're only mine
each and everyday i'd walk with you
right by my side
'what is there we have to hide
sneak around and lie
just to spend time alone
cause loving is a crime
i'd really do the time
and leave the world behind
_______________________________________
there was once when everyone asked me why my msn nicks were always so descriptive of all the love in the world, and why i was always smiling.
but these days the shades of gray seem to have darkened.
i just hope the sun can continue shining on me
cause i need some love to rain on me.
the yearn for my life to be back to what it was like a few months back, is so strong it plagues my mind every day.
i just pray that the merciful Father will grant me that.
when the love began
thinking of a million ways
to escape and be with you
our reality wasn't just you and i
it was long drawn out days and lonely nights
dreaming about you
i keep dreaming about you
and i'm dreaming about when you would say
let me take you to another place
where nothing ever seems to matter
it's just you and me
we can take flight
like a thief in the night
stolen moments with you
well destiny
didn't have such a simple plan
i was just a girl
and you a young man
how could age define
something so divine
can this even be real
or just exist in my mind
when noone and nothing else takes up our time
finally you're only mine
each and everyday i'd walk with you
right by my side
'what is there we have to hide
sneak around and lie
just to spend time alone
cause loving is a crime
i'd really do the time
and leave the world behind
_______________________________________
there was once when everyone asked me why my msn nicks were always so descriptive of all the love in the world, and why i was always smiling.
but these days the shades of gray seem to have darkened.
i just hope the sun can continue shining on me
cause i need some love to rain on me.
the yearn for my life to be back to what it was like a few months back, is so strong it plagues my mind every day.
i just pray that the merciful Father will grant me that.
you get me high`
7:33 AM
7:33 AM
[warm my lonely nights]
ahh the cny holidays have come to an end! and now it's a slap back to reality- school! first day of school today, first feb! MY month. (: heh. it's a nice and sweet-loving month, cause valentines' day and my birthday happen to fall within the month! (: it's good stuff, ya? when you think feb, you think happy! and lovely! and just sweetsweetlove all the way. heh. i'm obsessing.
aiight, so the last day of the cny break wasn't spent doing much. woke up kinda late, and ended up in some strange lady's house- a friend of my mum's i believe, though still yet to be confirmed. but nevermind, i received a nice red packet from her, so who cares about the history right, haha. i sound so money obsessive. i'm not! i dont really care about the red packets, it's just fun to see who gives how much and all. if not, everything just goes to the bank and chalks up miserable interest. it's almost like i never get to see much of my chinese new year cash. *shrugs*
then my family went over to my uncle kiat's place. where my cousin was packing his army bag as he was booking in later that evening. so a lot of photo-whoring took place. haha. it's what happens when you're bored i guess. but since there were so many pictures, i dont really know which ones to put up. so i won't put many. haha. sheesh i'm talking in circles. my fingers are freezing from the aircon right in front of me.
shan and i! (:
oh oh! chinese new year marked a new start for my brother! cause he picked up (and is rather addicted to) mahjong! hahaha. the first time EVER. he's been so sociable this festive season, partly due to the mahjong games organized by my over enthusiastic cousins. but nonetheless, it's so amazing to see my brother have so much fun and laughter. in comparison to his dull nature, you really feel tremendously happy for him! (:
but of course bad things happen too. my parent hamsters ran awayyy! it's been about 3 weeks since they gave birth to 5 gorgeous little offsprings, but have somehow managed to get outta the cage (which is really hard). BOTH the parents! at least the little hammies are old enough to get their own water and food, without having to rely on their mum. the parents are no where to be found in the house, and it's terribly saddening. you can really see a streak of depression across my brother's face everytime you remind him about the hamsters. and i bought them! i feel the loss too. ): at least they didn't leave him totally empty handed, they figured leaving their kids behind would be a good thank you gift for the amount of time we've put in to take care of them. sigh.
back to my uncle's place. while jon was packing his things, i discovered something! that the army hat is GORGEOUS. haha. so i went ahead to try it on and just fell in love with it. heh. and since he has so many credits to spare, he's gonna get me one! yay to the max! an army hat! it's funky, i tell you.
and i have pictures to prove! jon and i.
shan and i again. what did i tell you about photo queens.
but of course,
PICTURE OF THE DAY
my uncle jinn and i. HAHA.
he looks quite terrible here. X)
hehe.
aiight so first day of school. i think things are getting better, in the sense that i'm getting more used to.. school. itself. the schedule, the lect/tutorial system, the lack of sleep. the school work.
went to the library to study todayy! and i'm so happy i've got the greatest group of people to study with! my og! (: many thanks to julia who helped me with chemm! and ching! the mad scientist whose handwriting's really big, and is really scary with the calculators cause he seems really angry with them all the time! (: heh. (: should study moree. i'll try to help with math, heh. the only subject i have slightly fewer problems with.
blahhh it's kinda late, better get to bed.
8th month tmr! (: smilee.
trust in me
ahh the cny holidays have come to an end! and now it's a slap back to reality- school! first day of school today, first feb! MY month. (: heh. it's a nice and sweet-loving month, cause valentines' day and my birthday happen to fall within the month! (: it's good stuff, ya? when you think feb, you think happy! and lovely! and just sweetsweetlove all the way. heh. i'm obsessing.
aiight, so the last day of the cny break wasn't spent doing much. woke up kinda late, and ended up in some strange lady's house- a friend of my mum's i believe, though still yet to be confirmed. but nevermind, i received a nice red packet from her, so who cares about the history right, haha. i sound so money obsessive. i'm not! i dont really care about the red packets, it's just fun to see who gives how much and all. if not, everything just goes to the bank and chalks up miserable interest. it's almost like i never get to see much of my chinese new year cash. *shrugs*
then my family went over to my uncle kiat's place. where my cousin was packing his army bag as he was booking in later that evening. so a lot of photo-whoring took place. haha. it's what happens when you're bored i guess. but since there were so many pictures, i dont really know which ones to put up. so i won't put many. haha. sheesh i'm talking in circles. my fingers are freezing from the aircon right in front of me.
shan and i! (:
oh oh! chinese new year marked a new start for my brother! cause he picked up (and is rather addicted to) mahjong! hahaha. the first time EVER. he's been so sociable this festive season, partly due to the mahjong games organized by my over enthusiastic cousins. but nonetheless, it's so amazing to see my brother have so much fun and laughter. in comparison to his dull nature, you really feel tremendously happy for him! (:
but of course bad things happen too. my parent hamsters ran awayyy! it's been about 3 weeks since they gave birth to 5 gorgeous little offsprings, but have somehow managed to get outta the cage (which is really hard). BOTH the parents! at least the little hammies are old enough to get their own water and food, without having to rely on their mum. the parents are no where to be found in the house, and it's terribly saddening. you can really see a streak of depression across my brother's face everytime you remind him about the hamsters. and i bought them! i feel the loss too. ): at least they didn't leave him totally empty handed, they figured leaving their kids behind would be a good thank you gift for the amount of time we've put in to take care of them. sigh.
back to my uncle's place. while jon was packing his things, i discovered something! that the army hat is GORGEOUS. haha. so i went ahead to try it on and just fell in love with it. heh. and since he has so many credits to spare, he's gonna get me one! yay to the max! an army hat! it's funky, i tell you.
and i have pictures to prove! jon and i.
shan and i again. what did i tell you about photo queens.
but of course,
PICTURE OF THE DAY
my uncle jinn and i. HAHA.
he looks quite terrible here. X)
hehe.
aiight so first day of school. i think things are getting better, in the sense that i'm getting more used to.. school. itself. the schedule, the lect/tutorial system, the lack of sleep. the school work.
went to the library to study todayy! and i'm so happy i've got the greatest group of people to study with! my og! (: many thanks to julia who helped me with chemm! and ching! the mad scientist whose handwriting's really big, and is really scary with the calculators cause he seems really angry with them all the time! (: heh. (: should study moree. i'll try to help with math, heh. the only subject i have slightly fewer problems with.
blahhh it's kinda late, better get to bed.
8th month tmr! (: smilee.
trust in me
you get me high`
5:04 AM
5:04 AM
Sunday, January 29
[such a joy in my life]
happy chinese new year to everyone! (: too bad my doggie died, or it'd be his year.
well it's just been dinners and visiting and more visiting. sorry if i haven't been calling anyone. jess, in particular. i'm sure we both have been busy lar yeah? heh.
so friday night was reunion dinner. my grandma does it one day earlier so the daughters needn't have to go back to their inlaws and miss the dinner. twas at some hotel at novena. my granddad's treat! haha. hell, amounted up to 1000+. crazy. well it was good to see my cousins, just that at least half of them are overseas studying. one came back from working in shanghai to celebrate the new year. so it's all well. the food was aiight i guess, could've been better. dont know why my grandmum hasn't been cooking these years, i miss the tangyuan she always makes.
nothing much to say i guess, shall post some photos!
my big uncle's family! with my grandparents.
shan2, and the two army boys that just got back from bmt! glen and jonathan. (: haha their hair. haha.
my best granddad and i! aww so filial right. (: i have a neoprint with him k! he's way cool.
and of course a lot of photowhoring with shan2.
the night passed, and i woke up to david at my front door. initially we were supposed to go for a picnic! but i think we were both quite lethargic, so we lazed around, until FINALLY making our way there two hours after he came by. we went to west coast park! it's been ages since i'd been there. maybe jjemss should go there as an outing! then come to my place to stay, since we wanted an outing. (: dammit, if only kate was around. she loves west coast park! blahh. sorry girl, really wished you were here. (anyway i think i'm on my way to get the webcam and mic! my brother earned 800 bucks from debating! stupiddd.)
the spiderweb thingamajig that kate and i used to climb up all the time. damnnnn.
and of course there's dav and i photowhoring. (:
hehe, cute right? (:
aiight just had a long night, it's just past 230am now. bedtime! ((:
happy new year y'all!
fever when you're holding me tight
happy chinese new year to everyone! (: too bad my doggie died, or it'd be his year.
well it's just been dinners and visiting and more visiting. sorry if i haven't been calling anyone. jess, in particular. i'm sure we both have been busy lar yeah? heh.
so friday night was reunion dinner. my grandma does it one day earlier so the daughters needn't have to go back to their inlaws and miss the dinner. twas at some hotel at novena. my granddad's treat! haha. hell, amounted up to 1000+. crazy. well it was good to see my cousins, just that at least half of them are overseas studying. one came back from working in shanghai to celebrate the new year. so it's all well. the food was aiight i guess, could've been better. dont know why my grandmum hasn't been cooking these years, i miss the tangyuan she always makes.
nothing much to say i guess, shall post some photos!
my big uncle's family! with my grandparents.
shan2, and the two army boys that just got back from bmt! glen and jonathan. (: haha their hair. haha.
my best granddad and i! aww so filial right. (: i have a neoprint with him k! he's way cool.
and of course a lot of photowhoring with shan2.
the night passed, and i woke up to david at my front door. initially we were supposed to go for a picnic! but i think we were both quite lethargic, so we lazed around, until FINALLY making our way there two hours after he came by. we went to west coast park! it's been ages since i'd been there. maybe jjemss should go there as an outing! then come to my place to stay, since we wanted an outing. (: dammit, if only kate was around. she loves west coast park! blahh. sorry girl, really wished you were here. (anyway i think i'm on my way to get the webcam and mic! my brother earned 800 bucks from debating! stupiddd.)
the spiderweb thingamajig that kate and i used to climb up all the time. damnnnn.
and of course there's dav and i photowhoring. (:
hehe, cute right? (:
aiight just had a long night, it's just past 230am now. bedtime! ((:
happy new year y'all!
fever when you're holding me tight
you get me high`
3:37 AM
3:37 AM